nothing breaks your heart

everyone is better
at being cool
better than i am
at being so cool
like you are
with never letting
nothing at all
ever get a hold of you
like the way i do
i wish i knew
how to be
someone other than me
this city will rot
from how we ignore
this city rots
my insides more and more
pour out all over the floor
the older i get
the less i can pretend
the older i get
the more 
i want it to end
the closer i feel
the further away
you and everyone else seem to be
i wish that was me
a million miles away
and
not to touch a god damn thing
so nothing ever gets to (touch) you
and nothing ever breaks your heart