never before have i felt the way i do right now

i'm sad
really sad
and i don't know how to get out of this
today i did yoga
and meditated
and went out
tried to put a smile on my face
tried to ignore
my heart
but my heart hurts
for a reason
and i don't know
how to make it stop
maybe time
but it's a lonely feeling
the loneliest feeling
i've ever felt
and i don't want anything
that will just make it worse

i feel like i have to leave this place
for awhile
cause nothing here
is working for me
and i'm not working with it
i'm just really
not sure
if this
is just how
it will be
forever